I applaud you!!! I know, as much as you do, what it's like to have feelings you can't control. I am glad you are attempting to take control of your life. Good luck and know that we are here for you.

What I find interesting in that strange way of interesting is how anxiety affects different people. For me, I shake, for you, you puke.

I also applaud you for stating that you have the suicidal thoughts. I am ashamed to admit I get them, but whenever I do, I think of my family and I think I am NOT going to do that, it is the easy way out. Then I think of all the things I would miss.

I think you have a good view on this. I think I have come out of this a cynic. I used to be optimistic. I honestly think I am not anymore.

So BIG Hugs to you, buddy! Take Care!