Call me a sicko, but this made me smile a little. I'm loving the attitude. And I know what you mean, kind of, about feeling optimistic in the midst of such a disagreeable process---the sickness is an outward sign that you're doing something good for yourself, and it's working!
I also can relate a little bit about those suicidal thoughts. I think more of us have entertained them at one time or another than anyone would really guess, and often it's really more of a very, very fervent wish to be quite unconscious for a while than it is to be permanantly out of commission (and gawd, yeah, who wants to think about the practicalities??? Eeep!) But you tell people that and they freak, don't they? But ya know, certain friends of yours would probably not been freaked out at all if you'd shared those thoughts, especially if you expressed them the way you have here. :-) Just sayin'.
And today I thought of you when listening to "Rogue's Gallery" on the i-Pod and a very rude song came on about "The Good Ship Venus" whose "figurehead was a whore in bed sucking on a dead man's penis". Ew! Bwahahahaaaa!
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I also can relate a little bit about those suicidal thoughts. I think more of us have entertained them at one time or another than anyone would really guess, and often it's really more of a very, very fervent wish to be quite unconscious for a while than it is to be permanantly out of commission (and gawd, yeah, who wants to think about the practicalities??? Eeep!) But you tell people that and they freak, don't they? But ya know, certain friends of yours would probably not been freaked out at all if you'd shared those thoughts, especially if you expressed them the way you have here. :-) Just sayin'.
And today I thought of you when listening to "Rogue's Gallery" on the i-Pod and a very rude song came on about "The Good Ship Venus" whose "figurehead was a whore in bed sucking on a dead man's penis". Ew! Bwahahahaaaa!
;-) WJ