I applaud you!!! I know, as much as you do, what it's like to have feelings you can't control. I am glad you are attempting to take control of your life. Good luck and know that we are here for you.
Thank you! :-)
What I find interesting in that strange way of interesting is how anxiety affects different people. For me, I shake, for you, you puke.
It is strange, and I think that's why it's so often misdiagnosed, because the symptoms vary so much from person to person! I've always had a sour stomach because of my nerves but it's only when I kept getting really bad that I started throwing up. Never did as a kid, even when I was sick.
I also applaud you for stating that you have the suicidal thoughts. I am ashamed to admit I get them, but whenever I do, I think of my family and I think I am NOT going to do that, it is the easy way out. Then I think of all the things I would miss.
Definitely. It kind of brings it into my mind's perspective, when I'm feeling that low, to think of how sorely I'd be missed, because that's one of the things that drives me to the thoughts in the first place, the feeling that I could just disappear and no one would notice.
But I know too that I have friends around me that understand completely and that is very heartening too! :-)
I think you have a good view on this. I think I have come out of this a cynic. I used to be optimistic. I honestly think I am not anymore.
I'm definitely much more cynical that I was a year ago, and much, more more than I was when I was in my teens. I remember one day actually turning to my mother and asking her, "What happened? When did I stop being a nice person?" because I was so sensitive and so sweet as a kid. At some point I realized I'd gotten really angry about everything, really bitter, and i do think it's a more healthy process that blindly shoving everything under the rug, like my mom did for so many years.
So BIG Hugs to you, buddy! Take Care!
Thank you and backatcha! I think about you a lot and the trouble you're having because I do know what it's like and I know the same is true with you! HUGS!
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Thank you! :-)
What I find interesting in that strange way of interesting is how anxiety affects different people. For me, I shake, for you, you puke.
It is strange, and I think that's why it's so often misdiagnosed, because the symptoms vary so much from person to person! I've always had a sour stomach because of my nerves but it's only when I kept getting really bad that I started throwing up. Never did as a kid, even when I was sick.
I also applaud you for stating that you have the suicidal thoughts. I am ashamed to admit I get them, but whenever I do, I think of my family and I think I am NOT going to do that, it is the easy way out. Then I think of all the things I would miss.
Definitely. It kind of brings it into my mind's perspective, when I'm feeling that low, to think of how sorely I'd be missed, because that's one of the things that drives me to the thoughts in the first place, the feeling that I could just disappear and no one would notice.
But I know too that I have friends around me that understand completely and that is very heartening too! :-)
I think you have a good view on this. I think I have come out of this a cynic. I used to be optimistic. I honestly think I am not anymore.
I'm definitely much more cynical that I was a year ago, and much, more more than I was when I was in my teens. I remember one day actually turning to my mother and asking her, "What happened? When did I stop being a nice person?" because I was so sensitive and so sweet as a kid. At some point I realized I'd gotten really angry about everything, really bitter, and i do think it's a more healthy process that blindly shoving everything under the rug, like my mom did for so many years.
So BIG Hugs to you, buddy! Take Care!
Thank you and backatcha! I think about you a lot and the trouble you're having because I do know what it's like and I know the same is true with you! HUGS!
Peace, Jean