On another tangent... I have trouble supporting Sam's decision to use his powers. And it's all because of Ava and Jake. They were good people. Ava was a sweetheart, who I imagine began falling victim to YED once her survival instincts kicked in, and from there she was just gone.
Jake was a soldier with the capacity to kill, and he understood the situation on a base level of dog-eat-dog, but he was obviously torn. YED scared him, the idea of serving a demon scared him, but he fell and hard. By the time they found him at the devil's gate, he was nowhere near the guy he was when that whole saga started. Not many people feel bad for him because of the way he betrayed Sam, and I get that. But you also have to look at it from his perspective. He didn't have the knowledge that Sam did of demons and hell. He was thrown into something he didn't understand in the least, and he just wanted to survive, period. While I'm not that kind of person, I'm a lot more like Sam and relate to how he handled things, I can still see Jake's side.
Said all that to say, I'm scared for Sam in the same way Dean is. We keep getting these peeks at him as a changed man who no longer is as kind as he used to be. You could chalk that up to just what he's been through in the past three or fours years catching up to him, but it's also very easy to equate it with the demon blood. That's why Dean keeps going, "something wrong with you? You're... different." Because he knows he can only use these powers with good intentions for so long.
I don't think Castiel and Uriel are right in the sense that Sam is hurting anyone. He's not... yet. It's that "yet" that makes me antsy and makes me worried that Castiel might be right. I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Sam has a lot of control; he's noticeably stronger than Ava and Jake. But I just wonder how long that will last.
Then again, this from the Dean girl. ;) Plus, I know what it's like to watch someone go, "this is totally going to work out. Just you watch." And then it blows up in their face. I tried to tell them that I knew better, they shouldn't, but they didn't listen. And they had to face the music. I don't want Sammy to turn into someone he's not or get hurt or (God forbid) try to kill Dean!
I wonder if YED's death will affect him going evil (if he does). Exactly how much of that was Azazel controlling those kids? Hmm...
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on 2009-01-09 07:23 pm (UTC)Jake was a soldier with the capacity to kill, and he understood the situation on a base level of dog-eat-dog, but he was obviously torn. YED scared him, the idea of serving a demon scared him, but he fell and hard. By the time they found him at the devil's gate, he was nowhere near the guy he was when that whole saga started. Not many people feel bad for him because of the way he betrayed Sam, and I get that. But you also have to look at it from his perspective. He didn't have the knowledge that Sam did of demons and hell. He was thrown into something he didn't understand in the least, and he just wanted to survive, period. While I'm not that kind of person, I'm a lot more like Sam and relate to how he handled things, I can still see Jake's side.
Said all that to say, I'm scared for Sam in the same way Dean is. We keep getting these peeks at him as a changed man who no longer is as kind as he used to be. You could chalk that up to just what he's been through in the past three or fours years catching up to him, but it's also very easy to equate it with the demon blood. That's why Dean keeps going, "something wrong with you? You're... different." Because he knows he can only use these powers with good intentions for so long.
I don't think Castiel and Uriel are right in the sense that Sam is hurting anyone. He's not... yet. It's that "yet" that makes me antsy and makes me worried that Castiel might be right. I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Sam has a lot of control; he's noticeably stronger than Ava and Jake. But I just wonder how long that will last.
Then again, this from the Dean girl. ;) Plus, I know what it's like to watch someone go, "this is totally going to work out. Just you watch." And then it blows up in their face. I tried to tell them that I knew better, they shouldn't, but they didn't listen. And they had to face the music. I don't want Sammy to turn into someone he's not or get hurt or (God forbid) try to kill Dean!
I wonder if YED's death will affect him going evil (if he does). Exactly how much of that was Azazel controlling those kids? Hmm...