Bess LeZotte 1942-2004

[zouzounaki]

Well, today is the day. Three years to the day, to be exact, that my mom passes away. I've said most that needed to be said, and some stuff that never did, and there's only ever one thing that should be repeated: I miss her. Like a fist in my chest clutching around my heart, like a big old hole in my life. We had a rocky past, but in the last few years of her life, we were so close.

I lost my best friend, and I learned that life can throw things at you in the blink of an eye; everything can change.


You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
Who knew


Peace, Ghani

Comments

[lastwordslinger.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight* I'm so sorry. A loss that profound can affect you for years after, even when you feel you should have moved on. I'm glad to know your memories are primarily fond in spite of what you may have gone through with her. I just wish I knew more of what to do or say other than I am here. If there is ever anything you need, I'd gladly do it.

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

You know, just having you as such a good friend is one of the most amazing things in the world. I never had a lot of friends, not to make this sound like a pity thing, but I'm really shy and my mom was always so happy when I met someone I could talk to and laugh with online and all of this is leading to the fact that I think my mom would have really liked you. She had a wicked sense of humor (if you were wondering where I got that from ;-)) and sometimes I read stuff or write stuff and just think how much of a kick she would have gotten out of it.

Huggles!

[camelfeathers.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

You are a remarkable person, Ghani-- i feel blessed to know you. All of your struggles, and you manage to succeed, time and time again. In lieu of taking you out and buying you coffee and/or the beverage of your choice, this is one of my favorite songs-- i've listened to it a lot in grief times.

It's sung by a gospel group called the Blind Boys of Alabama-- this version, at least. ...link... (http://www.box.net/shared/nmdviilcx3)

I hope it brings you comfort. *more!hugs*

and feel free to delete this post if you don't want the link up on your journal :D

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Aw, I thank you so much! Hugs back!

And the song is lovely! I think I heard this version of it on Radio Delilah (http://www.radiodelilah.com/home/home.html) just a little while ago. It is remarkable the power music has over us, isn't it?

I remember the first time I'd heard Dare You to Move by Switchfoot right after my mom passed and i still get that same strength from it now thinking how much it helped me at the time!

Super huge huggles! :-D

[guttermaiden.livejournal.com]

*big hugs* I can't imagine life without my mum. My heart is with you today, dear. *mwah*

Spidur :)

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks! *Hugs back* :-)

(And I owe you a very embarrissingly belated happy birthday!)

[estarcollector.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* I lost my mom in 2005, so I know where you're coming from. Anytime you feel the need to rant, cry, reminisce, or just bask in shared sorrow--feel free to give me a holler.

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Will do :-) Thanks so much *huggles*

[shipotl.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I dread the day I will not have my mom around. I can only imagine how you feel right now but I know the day will come when I will know exactly how you feel.

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Hugs backatcha!

And I was so happy to hear about the wildfire not affecting your house! Hooray! :-D