Go away, agoraphobia!

[zouzounaki]

So. We ended up not going to the Hoggetowne Medieval Faire yesterday for the second year after getting there by hook or by crook for I think it was twelve years consecutively beforehand. Which means I didn't see aragornslove or get my fortune read for free by one of my sister's coworkers, or just generally revel in the glorious atmosphere. But, more than that, it's made me start thinking about my own state of mind in the past two years. I can make excuses, and they wouldn't be untrue, about having been sick yesterday not having the spare cash, or point out that my regular medieval faire buddy moved away two years ago. But in past years, I've literally gotten up out of my sick bed after two weeks of being bed ridden to go at least for an hour on the last day.

This leads me to examine more closely how my agoraphobia's been going through a particular rough patch: even the things I'm supposed to enjoy, that I know won't come around for another year, feel, not only like a chore, but actually are a frightening proposition. But hasn't it been this bad in the past? I suppose it has, but situations have changed (drastically, in some cases) as well. I dunno.

On the upside, I've finally gotten my sister completely addicted to True Blood, kick ass! She resisted for a long time, but I was sneaky, heh, and when they showed the first season over New Years week, I was sort of subtly putting it on until I was her start to pay attention and get interested. We watched the second season on On Demand over the weekend and she now knows the excellence that is Godric's storyline. Hearts!

Peace, Ghani

Comments

[rohajavongareth.livejournal.com]

*hugs much* A pity about you missing the medieval faire. Agoraphobia is something I don't have (for a change *rolls eyes*) but I imagine it must be quite crappy at times especially if you miss something you used to like. I mean, I used to be terribly shy in public and therefore didn't like going anywhare alone, but what you mean it different, isn't it?

On a more cheerful note, yay for you liking things like medieval faires. I was to only one I think but I absolutely loved it. There's a medieval reastaurant here where you eat with you fingers and everything and me and some friends used to go there dressed up in medieval costumes. I still have one of those and even one that I made myself... I miss that. I think I need to do it again. Too bad you live so far away, otherwise I'd volunteer to go to such a medieval faire with you at once. :D

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Hugs! Thank you, sweetie!

Ooh, I wish you lived closer too because you'd LOVE our medieval faire! It's the one place where I can mention something like ASOIAF or Merlin or anything like that, and everyone instantly knows what I'm talking about and wants to join in the conversation! And I have a nice little wardrobe of costumes that i go through every year, trying to decide what to wear!

[kittycallum.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That doesn't sound fun ... I'm sorry you didn't make it to the faire. Agoraphobia -- from what I've heard, though I've no experience with it myself -- can be really harsh that way. I'm sorry to hear that it's been rougher lately ... hope that improves soon.

Wish my town would have a medieval faire. I went to a Herstmonceaux castle event on a trip to England, but alas, I haven't been to anything medieval since then! (Aside from a couple of trips to "La Table Ronde" in Montreal, where I resisted the temptation to bankrupt myself.)

Anyway. Hope you feel better ... converting people to favourite shows is always enertaining! (My sister seems to get a kick out of getting me hooked on her favourite series -- that's how I found Merlin, for example!)

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you! Hugs!

The medieval faire here as grown insanely since I first started going; it used to sort of be this little sort of arts and crafts hick town thing but now it's gotten so popular, it's just booming. I know even the two ladies who started it are kind of like, "... the heck did this happen?!" LOL! I'm just incredibly lucky, I know it, to have it in town every year, because I think it was kind of a fluke!

And, oh my God, I could spend a lifetime's savings on just the costumes alone, bwahaha! (I do like to try them on, even if I can't afford. I go in costume, it's my temptation! xD)

Mehehe, my sister and I do it to each other, get each other hooked on things! She's started getting pickier, which means I have to get sneakier, hehe! But, yeah, it's awesome to have a viewing partner! :-)

[lastwordslinger.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you didn't get to go this year. And really, I think this is a case where it's a little bit of everything: money, illness, just plain not wanting to go out. It's hard when you're already struggling with something and you're given even more reasons not to do it. The more of those reasons that pile up, the more apt you are to say, "screw it." I know that quite well. I find myself more and more often making the choice to stay in when I could go out, and the reasons for that really are a long list, one of them regarding my mental state, I admit. So give yourself the benefit of the doubt! You do go out, and for someone who has agoraphobia, I'd say you manage quite well. *hugs*

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

This. Exactly. And I knew you'd know exactly what it felt like! Thank you, bb! Huge tackle-hugs!

I still haven't seen Holiday in action, though, dammit! I'll have to remedy that next year! :-)

[aragornslove.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you didn't make it! I kept a look-out on the sidelines for you. :) Perhaps next year. And besides, yesterday was just a bad day for me on that field. My knight had it out for me becaused I'd clobbered him two or three teams the day before, and the weekend ebfore, so I spent a lot of time dead. :)

Hope you're feeling better!

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie! Hugs! :-D

[musetrax.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about the Faire but I'm happy to hear about your family bonding <3

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Thanks, bb! Hugs!

[lytab-au.livejournal.com]

I know EXACTLY what you mean. I haven't really left my house in the last two years. Long story but I'm at a stage where even things I say I wouldn't miss for the world I still can't seem to get too.

I hope you feel better soon.

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Yes! That's exactly it. Even when I'm convinced, "No, this time I'm really going to go! I really want to..." somehow finding the will to carry that through... :-/ I'm so sorry it's so bad for you! Hugs!

[lytab-au.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's an ongoing saga. xx

[moetushie]

I'm sorry to hear about your agoraphobia, bb. :(
*Hugs*

BUT GO YOU, FOR GETTING YOUR SISTER INTO THE GLORY THAT IS TRUE BLOOD. :D

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Mehehe, I was a sneaky sneak about it but she had to learn the GLORY THAT IS TRUE BLOOD! And, lo, she now thinks it's the sexiest thing on TV evar! Teehee! Spreading the awesome love, it's... awesome! :-D

[dreamybritactor.livejournal.com]

Sorry about the faire - more sorry about your disease flaring up. I know with my anxieties, I get frustrated at myself because I think I shouldn't let these things get to me. It is good that you are trying to see the good in life. I only watched True Blood once, but it is cool you have something to get your mind off your troubles.

Big Hugs to ya!

[ghanistarkiller.livejournal.com]

Hugs backatcha! Thanks, sweetie!